https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SyWC8ZFVxGo
life means something because our choices are finite
honestly
the chief thing I worry about as I approach my own mortality is I don't want my wife to be alone, I care for her and there are areas where she needs my help
and to be there for her for as long as I can
I don't want to suffer obviously
I'm still curious as a human being
I'm heavily invested in the adventure of life
but I'm less attached to it
it's the gellasenheit (having let go)
solution of fear of death is accepting, letting go of the fantasy of the ego
what it usually produces is depression/torpor or frenetic activity
its mortality that makes this life mean something, we're here a short time